and yes, it is you. i never think about it until we have days like today. i didn’t want to expect anything because everytime i do, it never turns out good. when we first saw each other, we didn’t even really hug or exchange any kind of greeting. we didn’t even really talk all that much. i was thinking that this was just going to end up all bad. the car ride to nibs was kinda quiet at first but i tried to lighten the mood by asking about the places that we were passing. when we finally got to the restaurant, you walked quickly ahead of me which bugs the hell out of me when you do. we were kinda quiet there too but then just started talking about random stuff. we started to act like our normal selves again. i love how i can eat all messy infront of you and not even care. i love how dorky you can be by forgetting the word psychologist and calling it psychi.. lol. when we got to your place, it kinda seemed like you didn’t really want me to stay. i tried my best to come up with reasons of why i should though. i was really tired and then you came and cuddled next to me. it felt amazing. i miss that shit bro! and then after about an hour, i started randomly pointing and touching you like a nerd and naming all this anatomical stuff. it was pretty interesting. very intimate. you even wanted me to keep going. after that, we cuddled somemore. then you get up and play your frckn games! as always -____- lol. but shit. idk about you, but i hella miss doing shit like that with you. the feeling of it is amazing. i feel so comfortable with you. and you can’t deny that you don’t feel the same with me. but shit. whatever this is we have, will never work out. only because you’re too damn blind to even realize that there’s still something there. but whatever. i can’t always be here waiting for you to realize shit when it’s too late. just know that we’re perfect together. i love you asshole. especially days like these.
