you know i must still have feelings if i’m sitting here at home on the computer waiting to see if HE gets online. like he’s not on fb nor is he on aim. that must mean he’s out.. doing something.. with other people! like what the flying fuck! why do i care?! and why did i pass up the opportunity to go out tonite too?! i feel like i did back in high school when i wanted to talk to him really bad. like i frckn HATE this feeling. this needs to go away! and it needs to go away now! its really pissing me off! like i wake up every morning thinking about him.. go to sleep every nite thinking about him.. and think about him every now and then during the day! now i’m really regreting monday! i wish we just had sex and i left. it probably wouldn’t be as complicated as it is right now! like im over here wanting to talk about it so freakin bad! but im never gna do it cuz i dont wna complicate things… FUCK MY LIFE. i hope this all passes! and passes soon! it’s driving me freakin nuuuuuuutsss!!!
i think i do still have feelings for him… and if i do…
I THINK I WILL PULL MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST AND STOMP ALL OVER IT!
