but I’ll try my best to. Early morning vent. Gotta love these.
So the more I see this person, the less I want to see them. Does that make sense? We have an unspoken “don’t ask, don’t tell” policy between us. This person likes to think that we’re upfront and open with one another but we both know that we won’t share something unless the other does it first. What kind of friendship is that? If you can even consider it a friendship. I’m not stupid, I still know this person deep down to the core and I know what things they’re doing even if they don’t tell me. Sucks that this person can’t say the same thing about me. We went from being so unbelievably comfortable with each other to practically being strangers. It’s like we’re on this thin string that’s about to break and neither one of us is really doing anything to fix it. I feel like it’s going to break soon too. It just took me forever to realize that there’s just nothing left for us. There’s no emotion when we talk. There’s no excitability when we see each other after not seeing each other for awhile. (Which everyone knows I talk for days if I haven’t seen them in awhile.) And there’s just nothing there anymore.
My heart just looked at this person and felt that it can finally let him go. It took years for me to finally get over him, but at least now I know that I can.
